Thursday, September 27, 2012

Real Life

Sometimes my life is not as nice and wonderful as I would like everyone to believe. Sometimes it gets hard and down right awful.

On Sunday the 2nd after realizing I was two weeks late I took a pregnancy test, immediately two lines showed up pregnant! Honestly Kevin and I were terrified. All I could think about was; how am I going to do this, is McKenna going to get enough mommy time before the new baby arrives.

Just to be sure I took two more tests on Monday morning (we have had a false positive before) then THREE more that night, all five came up positive. Still in shock, I prayed thinking that there was no way I could do this.

By Wednesday I was able to get in to see Tina my wonderful midwife and was even able to get to see our little baby. I remember holding my breath until she found my little baby. He / she was 6 weeks and 5 days old. The heart beat was 110, we were concerned about this because ideally you would want the heartbeat to be around 120s or higher, the plan was to come back in for a follow up appointment in two weeks.

Even though I knew Tina had some concerns about this pregnancy, I left the office utterly in love with my little peanut. I was to excited to keep this news a secret and started telling close friends, already absolutely swept up in the joy and excitement of a new baby.

 I did try to be realistic telling myself that the heart beat was low and that I need to wait until my next sonogram, I wanted to prepare myself for the worst but it was almost like a snow ball effect. I would find myself day dreaming about all three of my little girls (yes, whenever I think of our future I ALWAYS picture three girls!!). Just seeing a pregnant woman would make me touch my belly. YES, I was pregnant and in May I would be holding a sweet little baby. I was in love.

Thursday morning I noticed some spotting, but thought nothing of it because with both McKenna and Brooklyn I had bleeding, I just assumed it was normal and went about my day taking it easy per Tina's request. That night I started getting a few cramps hear and there again I thought it was normal and would call Tina in the morning.

The next morning (Friday) I noticed the spotting had slowed down so I decided not to call the doctor but to spend the day on self prescribed "bed rest" around the time Kevin got home from work the cramping and bleeding was back stronger than ever. I knew. We decided that I would go to the ER alone, while Kevin stayed home with the girls, at this point it was late, I was an emotional wreck, and really didn't want to deal with any one. I needed to be alone with my baby.

I don't remember much about the emergency room visit, they gave me some meds for the pain and did a sono confirming that our baby had not made it, walked me through what to expect with a miscarriage and discharged me. By this point I couldn't cry anymore, I felt numb.

Its been a few weeks and I'm still sad and I still don't feel normal yet. I don't understand why this miscarriage is hitting me so hard, when in fact this miscarriage makes for miscarriage number three for Kevin and I. Maybe its because this time people knew or because I saw the baby.

This baby has made it painstakingly obvious to us that we want one more baby, In fact thanks to this little peanut we have set a date for when we will start trying for baby number three. Even Kevin who was dead set on only having two, has started making sweet comments to me about our next baby!

 So thank you little peanut! Thank you for the days of joy you gave me and for the clarity about our future. You were very loved and will be missed.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Camera Fun!

Things at the Zercher house have been CRAZY for about a month now, more about that later. One thing that has been driving me crazy is that my camera has been in and out of the repair shop for the last 12 weeks! and I have so send it back on Monday :( I love taking pictures of my girls and not having my camera is really starting to take a toll on me, so before I have to send it back out for repair I took the girls out to play for a while.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Plunging in to Mops!

I'm happy to announce my first semester in MOPS! I am so excited to get started, so far I have already met several super sweet and amazing women. Today was our first official meeting, which was more of getting to know, our individual groups, team leaders, and organizers, oh and all the other MOPS mommies :)
Our theme this year is PLUNGE,  and today all of the food and decor had a really beachy / breakfast feel, even our small group names fit in right along ( I am proud to be in the Nantucket group!) I have to say that I absolutely adore my team leader Brettni!!
Our group -missing a few-

Some of the adorable decor

Thanks Lyndsey for introducing me to MOPS this year I can't wait to get started!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

First Day of Pre-School

Brooklyn did so well on her first day. We woke up early, had our showers, dropped baby kenna off with nana and Of course took LOTS of pictures then we were on our way. Once we were at the school Brooklyn remembered right where her class room was, from meet the teacher night, and practically pulled me down the hall to get there. At first she walked straight in said bye and started coloring but after a few minutes, while I was filling out some papers, she came and gave me a good bye hug.

That was it. No tears...just;" bye mom, I'm going to color now" I can't hardly wait to pick her up! luckily I have miss McKenna to keep me entertained or else I would go crazy!

Toddler craft and playdate

The other day we invited some of brooklyns friends over to Play and craft with us. Any time we have a play day at our house Brooklyn talks about her party for the entire week ahead of time and this was no different. Brooke loves helping me pick out what to get for her friends to do and this month she wanted to paint. We found these little figurines at Walmart and thought that they would make a great painting project. The kids had tons of fun and Brooklyn enjoyed having everyone over.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

7 Months old

7 Months Old

McKenna weighs16.1 (20%) and is 26.5 (50%) inches tall. She wears size 2 diapers (we will start size 3 when this box is empty) and is still in size 3-6 and 6 month outfits.
  • says mama, Dada, bye-bye (but does not associate them to any one or thing yet)
  • turns her head to her name
  • will pull up from laying to sitting then to standing while holding on our fingers, legs or any toy
  • pulled up from laying to sitting in her crib 8/10 then three days later 8/13 pulled up to standing position using her zany zoo toy
  • kicks her feet and shakes her head no when she is tired or excited
  • Mckenna will walk holding our hands
  • Two of her bottom teeth came through on 8/20
  • She is picking up and eating more solid foods like peaches, bread and pasta on her own
  • Holds her own bottle
  • Waves bye-bye
McKenna is still sleeping through the night and is taking three naps during the day these naps last anywhere from and hour to three hours long. she also eats solids three times a day along with her bottles. The things/ toys McKenna enjoys most are her jumper, climbing on things, and doing flash cards with Brooklyn.